As I have been quite consumed by the play I was performing in, studying for my master's exams, and perhaps just trying to get a few hours of sleep in between, I've had little time to sit and reflect on this past semester.
It's funny, but I really do, as much as I complain about it, love being busy. Now, having already performed in the play, and having passed my master's exams, I find myself with little to do. This feeling of sadness came over me today, five minutes after arriving home and eating the last of the ice cream in my freezer. I hate this feeling of uncertainty. What now? I dislike change to its very core.
This is of course not to say that I would like to live in Bowling Green, Ohio for another year. I wouldn't. But I will miss the German department and the interesting cast of characters in my life that have come into my life because of it.
I am quite the sap, I know.
But move on I must, and I will. It's really quite comical that I was sad at the beginning of my Auslandsjahr when I ended up going to Austria instead of Germany. Now I'd like to live in Austria, and yet I am going to Germany. Life is funny that way. I have absolutely no idea what to do now.
It's so funny to think that a few years ago I thought I'd have it all figured out by now. And yet, we never, ever do...
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